Excuse me the weird tittle for this post, but yesterday I’ve had one of the most interesting synchronicity here in Istanbul regarding how astrological symbols pervades real life. This is actually one of the themes that truly fascinates me about astrology, how the symbols come out, how the archetypal energy gets manifested.
Since I’ve had a phase of exploring one night stands searching for myself I started to get curious about what astrology could speak in terms of attraction in each specific case. For instance we know that interaspects between Mars and Venus usually light up a spark between two people. But I wanted more than that, I wanted to see and understand how I feel the different nuances between each attraction and connection I would have with someone. It has been quite a fascinating journey and I definitely should write some more stuff about that.
But anyways, yesterday I decided to go out on a date with myself. It was one of these days that I just crave my own company. And so I went in search of a bookshop that would sell books in English.
As I was walking in the street I saw this guy sitting on a step listening to a turkish old man playing the flute. I don’t really know how to explain, but I just felt this urge to sit down beside him and have a chat. I didn’t really know exactly why as I didn’t really fancy him or anything like that. But because I’m making sure that I connect more and more with my instincts and wild self I simply turned around and sat beside him asking if he speaks English. He was surprised and asked me if I was from Turkey and was even more surprised to find out that I’m from Brazil because so was he. We went for coffee and shared many stories and feelings. After couple of hours we said good bye and when I got back I was curious to see the synastry or anything that could enlighten me about that sudden attraction. I was searching for meanings, like I usually do. Didn’t find anything in the synastry, so decided to check his progressions and found out that his progressed chart at the moment is exactly the day of my birthday. So most of the planets of his progressed chart is in the same degree and configuration of my birth chart. I don’t know what my conclusions are about this happening, but that made me think a lot about vibration and resonating yet from another perspective. Were we just meant to be some kind of mirror, but very literally at this point in time, to each other for couple of hours in such apparently random situation?
I don’t know exactly why I chose this tittle for this post. I guess it has something to do with some left over inspiration from the full moon in Gemini yesterday.
I just read an article about the astrological configuration and got some food for thought from it. About how the square of Saturn to Neptune got involved in the picture yesterday, or how it was rather triggered by this full moon. Saturn in Sagittarius, Neptune in Pisces, Moon in Gemini (plus Jupiter in later degrees of Virgo, which would sort of suggest the ‘pseudo’ formation of a grand cross) and this really makes me think about a conflict between truth and beliefs versus reality and delusion, with an input of information or a bit of clarification represented by this full moon. The full moon symbolises the culmination of something, the end of a cycle and Gemini lends a quality of mind and detachment to it.
Bringing this whole thing to a personal level, yesterday I finally came across a piece of information that really has shed some light on a situation that has been lingering on and on for much too long. Clarity really stroke me and I suddenly was brought to think and question my values in relation to relationships. Saturn in Sagittarius, also transiting my Mars and asking my masculine side to become more mature, is very serious about honesty and morality. Neptune in Pisces is a bit harder to grasp, it has to do with higher realms and trying to pin it down simply does not work. It has to do with dreams and ideals and romanticism. We can sense the conflict between those two archetypal energies, or at least I can. The smoke hitting against the wall. Then comes the full moon, gigantic in the sky and in its brightest moment, just like a spotlight showing you whatever was that you’ve missed in the process. Whatever idea or information that is crucial for at least trying to have a little more clarity and vision over the matter. Be the matter related to the refugee crisis and racism or to religious extremism, or perhaps self deluding about a person in your life. Whatever it might be, the energies in the air are still conducive to grant you some ideas and clues about any conflicting confusion that you have been struggling over. Enjoy.
The winds of change are blowing hot in Istanbul. I just went for a walk and saw many plastic bags floating around the sky like American Beauty. There is a lovely feeling of peaceful freedom inside my chest and is almost like I can taste the changing air with my lungs.
We made it, all the way from Amsterdam only hitchhiking. 69 days are gone and I feel different. I feel closer to myself.
Moon in Aries has hooked up with Uranus and both are opposing Venus in Libra, which is making a conjunction with my natal Moon right now.
I somehow feel the electricity of uranian energy coming back to me. With a strong sense of wakefulness and presence I can almost see from inside a different twinkle in my eye.
I’m leaving Europe after been here for almost 8 years and that old sense of home is once again lost. But, from the distance, I can already see a tiny little home that is newly being born within …
I’m trying to get back on track with my writings now. I haven’t posted anything for over a month and there is so much that has happened really, as you all can expect. We did manage to hitchhike all the way from Bavaria to Komotini in Greece, where we currently are. We haven’t spent a penny on transport or accommodation, which is grand, but mostly what is truly worthy is the adventure and the amount of stories that I’ve been collecting for the past two months. I obviously won’t be able to write them all down at once here, but hopefully if I manage cultivating a little discipline and patience I can slowly feed this blog with some of them.
Talking about patience and discipline, Saturn is now crossing over my natal Mars-Uranus conjunction and I thought I would die of frustration and boredom. We’ve been at this place just outside of Komotini for about 2 weeks now and there isn’t much to do around here. The guys here are great people, truly nice and giving, but if I spend another month here I would either literally die of boredom or write a whole book. Yes, I’ve been writing a lot lately, which is great I guess. Also spending a lot of time on my own company, which I was craving so much after being full on with my traveling companion for the whole time we’ve travelled. As time goes by I become more and more aware of my need for space and solitude.
I’m also getting ready for the next stage of this trip, flying to Thailand. In two days we are hitching to Istanbul (hopefully not taking longer than 1 day to get there!) and back to having some adventure in my veins. Im truly looking forward.